Letting Go

Letting Go

28 October 2017

The main reason I stop blogging is because I was scared. I was scared of being judge by others. What if my English was not good enough? Or even my Malay? What if I made a grammatical errors? What if my content was boring and useless? What if I wrote something negative? What if my friends read my blog? What if my sisters found my blog? What if people thought I was bragging? And the what if questions continue.... Fuh

Honestly, I regret of letting my insecurities won over. I stop blogging. Try to blog again, but after my first entry I stop. Delete my previous first entry, and made a new first entry, stop again, and the cycle starts to repeat. Like last month, I wrote my first entry (again) and promise myself to commit writing my blog, but I haven't write anything since then. I almost, almost wanted to delete my first post, rewrite my first entry again. But then I stop.

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Starting All Over Again!

Starting All Over Again!

14 September 2017

For the hundredth times. 

Hye there.

I remembered the first time I started blogging when I was in Form 1. That was in 2005. The reason I blog then are for “here’s what I did this weekend” and “here’s some random stuff on my mind”. It's like a private diary but with pictures and videos where I can let my "creativity" (at that time) go wild. And other reason I blog at that time was to update my life to my sister who was studying in Australia. Blogging became a personal space that I share with a few of my closest friends, and we started to blog together. Honestly, I really enjoyed it. Even though reading my old blog makes me cringe at how childish and cheesy I was, I also love to be able to see how much I've changed, how wise I sometimes were, and the most important thing was, the fact that even how frustrated, mad, sad, depress and heartbroken I was before, I'm still here. Healed and content. Yes, I survived. 

Why did I ever stop blogging? Blogging was my happy place. I guess it still is.

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