For the hundredth times.
Hye there.
I remembered the first time I started blogging when I was in Form 1. That was in 2005. The reason I blog then are for “here’s what I did this weekend” and “here’s some random stuff on my mind”. It's like a private diary but with pictures and videos where I can let my "creativity" (at that time) go wild. And other reason I blog at that time was to update my life to my sister who was studying in Australia. Blogging became a personal space that I share with a few of my closest friends, and we started to blog together. Honestly, I really enjoyed it. Even though reading my old blog makes me cringe at how childish and cheesy I was, I also love to be able to see how much I've changed, how wise I sometimes were, and the most important thing was, the fact that even how frustrated, mad, sad, depress and heartbroken I was before, I'm still here. Healed and content. Yes, I survived.
I guess it's time for me to start living again. To start embracing my present and future. I private all my old entries just because there is nothing proud or beneficial that I want to share with anyone. I want to start fresh. I might copy and paste some of my old entries in the future, but only to share the lessons from it. I decided that I will only post positive stuff. The internet does not need to hear my whining and crappy heartbreaks anymore. The world definitely needs a whole lot more of positive vibes.
I admit. I have issue with commitment. I promise myself to start blogging again on last April, but I haven't updated any since then. And now it's already the middle of September! It's either I write too many entries in one time, or no entry at all for several months. Discipline Alia, discipline. Same things with going to the gym or reading books or editing videos. I have no self-discipline. Help. I always given up half way. Like my taekwondo class, or swimming class, or even my past relationships. Thank God I did not give up my studies, family and best friends.
There are a lot of reasons as to why I started a blog, and honestly it’s really easy to start one. Continuing to blog IS where the challenge lies. I hope I can at least post 1 entry per week.
Dear future me,
There will definitely been days you wanted to close your laptop and move onto something else. Please remember that you want to write for you.
a) For your own personal growth (crossing bucketlists).
b) A space for you to be free and creative (Since you have no artistic or music talent! HA HA).
c) A space for you to practice your languages (Susunan ayat dan tatabahasa ke laut, tak kesah la Melayu ke Inggeris. Adoi).
d) A space for you too organize your thoughts and ideas (berselirat!).
e) For you to share positive stories that could inspire, motivate, and benefits at least a person.
Since I'm going to the new phase of my life in a couple of month, insyaAllah, I hope I will commit with both my new life and blogging life.
Cheers to the new commitments in future. I pray that we will all stay committed with all the good things in our life.
Love and prayers
AS
