Honestly, I regret of letting my insecurities won over. I stop blogging. Try to blog again, but after my first entry I stop. Delete my previous first entry, and made a new first entry, stop again, and the cycle starts to repeat. Like last month, I wrote my first entry (again) and promise myself to commit writing my blog, but I haven't write anything since then. I almost, almost wanted to delete my first post, rewrite my first entry again. But then I stop.
Last two weeks I wrote an email to sister Aida Azlin, it was random and spontaneous I swear, and I did not expect a reply. But she, being the sweethearts she is, she did reply my email. I almost cried. I wrote that I want to be like her, I don't know where to start, I like writing but I'm not good at it, I love making videos, but I don't have a good content. I studied law but I'm actually a shy person. Even though I have so much things to say, and I'm actually an extrovert person, but sometimes, I shy. No, I'm actually afraid. And her reply, masyaAllah, it was simple but it really touch my heart. I can't stop smiling.
"Ma sha Allah you have a great career and just need to come out from your shell, as you said you have 'lots to say'..Perhaps try getting yourself comfortable with writing first, then try speaking? These things take time but if you dont take one small step every day, you will always remain at the very same spot, so you'll lose out :(
Try writing in your spare time, In sha Allah, if you have the passion I'm sure that will come through in your work. And a great way to combat some of your shyness. Take the leap, start something you love.
And trust me, a lot of us dont know where to start - but thats not the main point here. The main point is to JUST START. Begin, and be ok with making mistakes. The worst mistake that you can do is to not start at all :( "
Here I am, taking the leap, starting something I love. Letting go my what if questions, letting go my insecurities. I hope everyone does too. :) One step at a time. Just start.
Love and prayers
AS
