27 Facts About Me

30 January 2019

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Salam and hye!

Today is my birthday! Alhamdulillah I turned 27 this year. I am always the one who is the most excited when it comes to others birthday... but not mine πŸ˜‚ I always feel gloomy when it's my birthday. I always question myself, "What have I done with my life before?" "What do I want to achieve in my life?" "What is my purpose in life?" "I don't know what I want to be" etc.

Plus, since I just gave birth to my baby, I feel like my birthday is not for me, but for my mom. So we should celebrate my mom? Thank you mak! 😘

Anyway, this is so random, since it is my birthday, I feel like listing 27 random facts about me. So here we go.
  1. I really love blue colour. If that wasn't obvious enough. My room is blue, my clothes are blue, my baby girl clothes are blue and basically everything that I own, I want it to be blue. πŸ’™ 
  2. I love free stuffs and I love to keep every single thing including boxes and plastic bags. I'm having a hard times letting go my things. How am I going to do Konmari? πŸ˜‚
  3. I have been blogging since I was thirteen years old. But I keep those blogs private now. I still read my previous blogs just to have a good laugh on myself once in awhile.
  4. I'm the youngest in my family so I got spoiled a lot. But I also handed-down clothes a lot. The handed-down clothes is now applicable to my baby since she have a lot of older cousins. πŸ˜‚ I I love taking my siblings clothes and random things I've found in the house. They didn't even know they have those things until I wear or use them. πŸ˜‚
  5. I never live outside Selangor. Except when I was 2-3 years old where I live in UK because my dad continued his study.
  6. I love signing up for marathon or saying yes whenever my friends want to go hiking even though I'm not fit and always question my decision when I was running or hiking.
  7. I have lots of journal, different purpose of for each journal. I've been journaling since I was young, I don't even know it was called journaling.
  8. I'm always an average student. Never the brightest, except when I was in standard 3, I got number 1 in my batch. But other than that, I'm always average. Most of the time I don't think my teachers know my existence. πŸ˜‚
  9. I love dessert! I can eat everything. My most favourite is anything cheesy.
  10. My favourite fruit is mango!
  11. I love to celebrate people and making surprises! But I don't know how to act when my friends trying to surprise me. They will definitely kantoi with me. πŸ˜‚
  12. I used to have blue belt taekwondo. Don't mess with me. 
  13. I was in my (primary) school netball team, I played as a Goal Shooter. I love netball! It's been so long since I last play it. I love shooting but I can't run that much cause I used to have asthma. That's why I was always the GS, not GA.
  14. I used to ran really fast. I was always number 1 during my kindergarten's sports day.
  15. I studied law, but I don't like politics. People always think that lawyer knows everything but I don't know most of tje things.
  16. Pokemon is my most favourite cartoon, I never miss watching it when I was small. My favourite Pokemon is Charmander.
  17. I grow up with Disney and I love fairytales!
  18. I have travel to 12 countries, so far I think. I want to travel to all 7 continents of the world.
  19. One day I want to write a book.
  20. My favourite animals are elephant and panda. I always imagined myself volunteering at elephant sanctuary.
  21. I am an Aquarius, my birthday is on January. Today to be specific.
  22. My personality type is ENFJ. But weirdly, I don't know how to be friendly with someone new.
  23. My love language is different to each person.
  24. The only cake I know how to bake are congo bars and kek batik. Those two don't even count as cake? πŸ˜‚
  25. I'm not a baby or kids lover, but I don't hate them. But I LOVE my baby, my nephews and nieces so much! 
  26. I love to enter any contest, competition or giveaways! I love free stuffs, remember? πŸ˜‚ I entered a scrap books competition when I was in secondary school and I won first place! πŸ˜‚ The most awesome gifts that I won is holiday to Pattaya!
  27. I am currently a housewife and I love it!
That's all! Bye!


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2019 Bucketlist

28 January 2019

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Salam.

Honestly, I have a totally different vision of my 2019 at the 1st week of 2019. Now, I kinda think that I need to reshuffle my thoughts and priority. First thing first, regarding my career. I'm still 50 - 50 to step up from my comfort zone and to growth career wisely or to take a break and focus on my baby. And I don't think it is achievable to upload videos every week for the time being. Means, I might need to change my theme of the year also. Let just go with the flow right now.

Anyway, I think I might just need to list what I want to achieve this year and just go with it.

1. Read 15 books.
2. Hafaz 5 new surah.
3. Hafaz Juzk 30.
4. Achieve 55-59kg.
5. Ramadhan in Brunei.
6. Travel to at least one new country.
7. Celebrate lots of wedding!
8. Staycation with my girlfriends.
9. Learn montessari.
10. Join at least two running events.
11. Join at least one talk.
12. Volunteer at least one time.
13. Make use of every free things before investing for more next year year.
14. Learn editing video.
15. Learn transcribing and make money out of it.
16. Consistent uploading my blog.
17. Start posting my videos on youtube.
18. Learn cooking and baking.

I want to celebrate my family and friends, learning with my baby, and learn lots of new skills this year. Pray for me please!
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You and Tidying Up with Marie Kondo | Netflix Reviews

25 January 2019

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Since I can't watch any movies in cinema nowadays, I've been watching a lot more of Netflix. I'll probably just gonna share my thoughts on my favourite movies or series from now on, cause I think I watched kinda a lot and not all of them spark joy to me. πŸ˜‚



B and I, we both have very different taste in movies and series. It is kinda hard to find something that both of us can enjoy watching together. But this series, is awesome! B loves thriller, I don't like thriller. But this one is so addictive and entertaining. We finished watching this together for about 4 days I think. I don't know it was a thriller series at first because B obviously chose it and force me to watch it.

πŸ‘₯Acting : I love everyone in this movie! Penn Badgley is so good, how can be so psycho and innocent at the same time.

🎒Plot : I love every episode! But why do it have to end that way? Now I can't wait for the season 2. πŸ˜“

🌠Total Star : 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟



I love reality show. And I've known Marie Kondo since last year. Aileen keep mentioning her book and do the konmori challenge in her Lavendaire's Youtube. I was so excited to finally meet her in person, I mean watching her on her show. I've been getting the idea to declutter and reorganize my space since last year. I was actually in the middle of new year's cleaning when I bumped into this show.

🎒Plot : Every series has different theme and there's only something new that she teach.

🌠Total Star : 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟


Other movies that I watched in Netflix this month are:
1. Battle
2. Cargo
3. Circle - This one kinda cool πŸŒŸπŸŒŸπŸŒŸπŸŒŸ

Netflix shows and series are getting better, I'm so excited to watch so many of them!
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#3 Mom | Gratitude Journal 🌠

23 January 2019

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Salam lovelies.

Today I want to talk about my superwoman, mak. πŸŒΈ 



My mom cooks the most delicious foods ever, I grow up eating delicious food, thank you mak! She can bake and even decorate the cake! She can sew clothes, make smocking dresses, gardening and literally everything that an ideal mother should be able to do. She makes everything look so easy to do! She's kinda sets high standard of how-to-be-a-mother. #pressured I hope I can be half as good as her. 

My mom is someone who will tell directly to her daughters, "YOU HAVE PIMPLES ON YOUR FACE" when obviously they know. πŸ˜‚ She is someone who will tell her daughter, "Just bear with it. That's normal." when her daughter was having a contraction pains. #toughlove Words is not her language of love. πŸ˜‚ My mom is like the typical Asean Mom. She doesn't really show her loves with words but trough action. 

I was a grumpy teenager. I always fight with my mom. I'm sorry I was a terrible teenager. Sorry mak. We never really say sorry, but my mom will cook meals for me and everything will be back to normal. πŸ’™ I have an awesome childhood mak, thank you.

Now that I'm older, married and have a baby, I'm beginning to understand my mom better. I'm closer to her than ever. I know I'm not her favourite child (although she will never admit it and always argue that she loves everyone equally), but we can have a decent conversation now and I can start telling her secrets. πŸ’™ I am so thankful for my mom.

I pray for the highest Jannah for you, Mak. May you always be healthy and happy. I know I don't really post about you in my social medias, because that's just not my language of love, (and also, you, kakak and kakchik will bahan me later). but I love you a lot! Thank you for always making me feels safe and home. You feels like home Mak. You are my home. πŸ’™
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My Most Anticipated Movies of 2019 πŸŽ₯

21 January 2019

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I am so looking forward for this year's blockbusters! πŸŒŸ Although sadly, I can't watch any movies in cinema for the time being, because my baby is still direct breastfeeding. πŸ˜­ But anyway, Hollywood already has exciting 2019 planned for us! Disney has three live-action remakes coming our way, Marvel has a new superhero and a grand finale Avengers! If you know me, you know how much I love Disney and Marvel movies. I'm also looking forward for more animation, love, romantic, fantasy and superheroes movies. I don't really like thriller or ghost story, so yeah expect none of them in my list. πŸ˜‚

JANUARY
Opening on: January



I'm so excited for this movie! The first two are my favourite! I cried in each movie. πŸ˜‚ One of the best animation with awesome storyline and scripts. Hiccup was my boy crush and Toothless is just too cute!

MARCH
Opening on: March 8, 2019


New superhero and it's a woman! Uh, finally Marvel! This is like a warm up movie before the final Avengers. πŸ˜‚ 



3. Dumbo

Opening on: March 29, 2019  
One of three Disney movie getting the live-action treatment in 2019! Not a fan of Dumbo before, but we'll see how.


APRIL
4. Avengers: Endgame
Opening on: April 26, 2019
This is like the number 1 most anticipated movie in 2019 for almost everyone including me! I'm so sad that its going to end, and expect a lot of superheroes to die, but can't wait for the mystery to unrevealed itself!


MAY
Opening on: May 3, 2019
Expect lots of lively music and colorful visuals! I love it!
Opening on: May 10, 2019
Ermm hello childhood? My number 1 favourite cartoon when I was young. Still my favourite until now.  

7. Aladdin
Opening on: May 24, 2019
Disney’s live-action adaptations with this update of the 1992 animated classic. One of my favourite princess, and I hope they include my favourite Disney's song of all time, A Whole New World.


JUNE
Opening on: June 7, 2019
Finally, The X-Men franchise after a long time!
Opening on: June 14, 2019
Love the Will Smith version, can't wait for this version because Thor and Valkyrie reunite!

10. Toy Story 4 
Opening on: June 21, 2019
I thought Toy Story 3 ending was already perfect? Cried so hard on that movie. Pixar must have a good reason to come back and risk the perfect ending to my childhood!

JULY
Opening on: July 5, 2019
Can't wait for this one!
Opening on: July 19, 2019
My number 2 most anticipated movie this year. My beloved Disney classic.

AUGUST

13. Hobbs And Shaw (2019) 
Opening on: August 2, 2019
Fast & Furious franchise! Always something to anticipate.

SEPTEMBER
14. The Angry Birds Movie 2 (2019) 
Opening on: September 20, 2019
The first one was okay for me. 

OCTOBER

15. Joker (2019) 
Opening on: October 4, 2019
Looking forward for DC!

16. The Addams Family (2019) 
Opening on: October 11, 2019


NOVEMBER
17. Charlie's Angels (2019) 
Opening on: November 1, 2019
Can't wait for this new movie take on the classic ’70s/’80s action franchise about thee kick-ass female detectives. I expect a lot of improvement for this movie.

18. Kingsman 3 (2019) 
Opening on: November 8, 2019
Manners maketh man. Looking forward for this movie as the first two were so cool.

19. Frozen 2 (2019) 
Opening on: November 27, 2019
They just couldn't let it go. Anna and Elsa are back for another round of frosty adventures in this sequel to the 2013 blockbuster. Wow, will this movie be as hit as the first one? Nafeesa, this is probably the first Disney movie that we're going to watch together baby. I hope the songs will be as catchy as Let It Go.


DECEMBER

20. Star Wars: Episode IX (2019) 
Opening on: December 20, 2019
I didn't actually follow Star Wars before, but the latest one keep on improving! B loves all the Star Wars movies, so I'm just gonna ask him a lot of questions when watching it.


Sending this list to B with a note, "You can't watch all of these without me!"
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Confession of A New Mommy : Breastfeeding & Confinement Story

18 January 2019

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I have a really tough breastfeeding and confinement days.

I believe Allah is so fair and He doesn't give you a test that He knows you can't handle.

As everyone knows, I had a smooth pregnancy and delivery journey. Alhamdulillah. But I had a really tough breastfeeding and confinement journey. My I was really struggling with bonding and motherhood at first.

Breastfeeding

I thought breastfeeding was easy? Uhh, no one give me a warning how difficult it could be? I never saw my sisters struggling with breastfeeding before. I was so mentally unprepared! The milk won't came out at first, probably because I was so tired and there are a lot of people visited us on the first day, so we can't bond that well yet, since the baby was passed to others more instead of me. Future note, don't tell anyone you had delivery a baby until you feel a lot better. First child, no experience, I was so excited I texted almost every of my friends. And B texted his family and friends too πŸ˜‚ BIG mistake.

I was so stress out because B and I wanted to fully breastfeed our baby. We don't even prepared with the bottle and formula milk. Thank God my mom, my sisters and my sisters in law help me a lot. They reaffirmed us that it is normal for the milk to come a bit later. My SIL bought the bottle and formula milk for the baby, because B still insist that the baby doesn't need a formula milk. He was afraid that the baby doesn't want my milk anymore. 

Alhamdulillah after the confinement lady came and give me massage, the milk started to flow out more. Alhamdulillah we stop formula milk immediately. 

But then the pain started. Baby doesn't know how to latch properly, my nipples crack, breast engorgement yada yada. Let just say I was having the most rough time of my life.

Confinement

I was so excited for confinement before the delivery, because I wanted to be pamper. πŸ˜‚ Man I was wrong. I was so tired all the time. I don't get enough sleep. I don't get enough rest. No one told me it was going to be this hard! I thought delivery was the hardest part? No.

It was double the pain for me because my jahitan luka bersalin tercabut. I was supposed to recover within one week only, but I'm still in pain for at least 4 weeks! Fuhh Talked about this on my anniversary post. 

Thank God I have a very strong and supportive support system. B woke up every night to give B yo me when it's time for breastfeeding. He give bath and change diapers everytime he's at home. Mak and Ayah help give baby bath and change diaper until I'm fully recovered. Mak cook for me, pantang food but still delicious. How to lose weight? Urgh

The best part about confinement is when the confinement lady came. I get so excited to be pamper! And she is so nice and good!

I am so thankful for my family and friends visits. At least they cheer me up. I got so excited every time anyone of my friends visit. 



πŸ’‘ MOMMY'S TIPS :
  1. Announce your delivery after you get full rest and have time to bond with your baby. 2 weeks after delivery or after confinement. You won't feel guilty to stop people from visiting you.
  2. Keep calm. Calm mommy, calm baby.
  3. Nipple cream helps a lot. I used Madela Purelan and Frankincense Essential Oil.
  4. Join breastfeeding community. I join one in Facebook, The Breastfeeding Advocates Network, TBAN. You will feel a lot better knowing that you're not alone and knowing that you're not the only one who feel like a loser. True story.
  5. Sleeps when your baby sleeps.
  6. Don't think about chores. Don't do chores.
  7. Drink a lot of water. Have water bottle with you all the time. Breastfeeding is hard work.
  8. Eat healthy for you to recover fast and for your milk booster.
  9. Spend a lot of time with your baby. Bonding time.
  10. Don't play phone while breastfeeding!
  11. It's okay that you're not the one who bath your baby, who change their diapers at first. You need a lot of rest. Don't feel guilty.
  12. Get helps! Your husband, your family or even your confinement lady.
  13. Preparation before your delivery is IMPORTANT. I labelled all of my baby's drawers, cause I know B will ask me where did I put everything. I already label everything so it makes everything so easy! 
  14. Enjoy the journey! 
  15. IT WILL GET BETTER!

Alhamdulillah everything is better now. I can fully breastfeed Nafeesa, and she sleeps so well at night. She is so well behave and doesn't cry much. I can feel the bonding now. πŸ’™

One thing I realized is that when I calm, she definitely calms too. So, calm mommy, calm baby. Happy mommy, happy baby. When I feel stress out, I will take a deep breath and try to calm myself because she will definitely cry if I feel stress out. That's how strong our bonding is I guess. πŸ˜‚  Can't wait for you to grow and we can learn and play together! Hello bff. πŸ’ž
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Five Imaginary Lives πŸ’‘

16 January 2019

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Inspired by Lavendaire's video above.

πŸ’‘ If I could live out five imaginary lives, what would I be/do? 

1. Become an event planner or have a surprise delivery services 

I love decorating and make my own DIY gifts. I helped set up photobooth and candy buffet for my sister's wedding and organize my niece's birthday party. I made my own DIY gifts for Meon and Mas' Long Call ceremony. I made lots of DIY gifts for B before and after marriage. Maybe I should make more DIY gifts this year and do surprise celebration for my family and friends this year. πŸ’™

2. Open a book cafe

With lots of home made donuts, breads, and desserts. People will come to just chill and read books. There will be quiet zone and performing stage for anyone who wants to perform, freely! One of my wildest dream!

3. Have my own volunteer or supportive community, where we share positivity, support each other and help others

I'm still searching for the right community where I can just click, but so far, I haven't found the right one for me. Maybe I should create my own and gather the people but I don't know how.

4. Traveler and do travel vlogs

I love travelling. I want to have my own travel series or something. I want to bring the world to everyone. I want people to see the beauty of Allah's creations, the history, the food, the culture and the people.

5. Film Director

I have always wanted to become a film director, since secondary school. I don't know why. I like the idea of filming. I should really started with creating short films in youtube.

I have so many more dreams lives but let just stick with five for now. When I was studying in university, I kept telling my friends, "I wish I could be..." "I can totally be..." which most of them, is not law related. πŸ˜‚ But perhaps one day I can still do all of these dreams, somehow.
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Books To Read In 2019

14 January 2019

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Hye!

So one of my resolution this year is to read 20 books, to expand my reading genre and to read only books that I have in my shelf. Let's see how it goes. So these are 10 books I want to read this year, hopefully.
  1. The Sealed Nectar by Safi-ur-Rahman al-Mubarakpuri
  2. The Ideal Muslimah by Dr. Muhammad Ali al-Hashimi
  3. Change or Lose by Abdul Karim Bakkar
  4. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
  5. Hikayat Satria-Satria Sejati: Generasi Baru by Hilal Asyraf 
  6. Arus Perubahan (Hikayat Satria-Satria Sejati, #2) by Hilal Asyraf
  7. Hero (The Secret #4) by Rhonda Byrne
  8. Shopaholic to the Stars (Shopaholic #7) by Sophie Kinsella
  9. Shopaholic to the Rescue: (Shopaholic #8) by Sophie Kinsella
  10. How To Talk So Kids Can Learn by Adele Faber, Rosalyn Anstine Templeton (Goodreads Author), Elaine Mazlish
I want to keep my options open for another 10. Let see how this will go!
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The Labour Story πŸ‘Ά

11 January 2019

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Assalamualaikum and hye everyone! 

It's been more than 2 months since I gave birth to my first baby. So I guess it's time for me to share with you my labour story. I've been repeating the same story for more than 30 times now, to all my family and friends. πŸ˜‚ Alhamdulillah it was quite fast and smooth, but still a little bit painful journey for me. I just feel so relieved and thankful that it was over now.

Friday's Night - 2nd November 2018

It's all started on the night before my labour day. I was just relaxing on my bed, scrolling down my social medias while B was playing his PS4. Suddenly I saw blood stain on my bed, I told B and he immediately freak out. πŸ˜‚ It was so funny seeing how freak out he was. 


I took my shower, taking my time, still calm and relaxing.  And when I finished showering I realised that B was taking his shower in other bathroom, rushing, not calm at all. πŸ˜‚
I went downstair, told my parents, and they asked whether my amniotic fluid's leaks. I said no. They calmly said just go to bed and go to the hospital the next morning. πŸ˜‚


Saturday - 3rd November 2018


8am - Woke up early and went to find breakfast nearby hospital area. Found like pasar pagi, had a lot of foodstalls. I eat everything that I want because let's face it, I won't be able to eat any of them after my delivery. Kuey teow goreng, ayam tepung goreng, kuih-muih, etc.
Thank you so much to all of the hospital's staffs, midwife, nurses, doctor and houseman. They were very nice and supportive. Best walaupun tak ambil private wing pun, hospitality memang tip top la. Lagipun tak ramai orang pun dalam wad tu. Maybe sebab Sabtu πŸ˜‚ It was very comfortable and the and the nurses were very helpful.



I asked Dr. Google whether I can still pray, and yes, I can still pray because it's not darah nifas.   

10am - You know, the hardest part of the delivery is actually when the doctor checking for the cervical dilation. Oh man, the pain was something else. Maybe my body was shocked. Contraction wasn't this bad! That's what I thought at first. πŸ˜‚ It was 3 centimeters dilated, so I need to be warded. Thankfully it was weekend and the visiting hours was from 12pm - 7pm. So B was with me all the time. Just that... he was sleeping on my bed. 🀷🏻‍♀️ Thank you, B. So I did my exercises, praying and calming myself,  preparing to see my baby.

3pm - Second time to check how many centimetres dilated. I was still very much traumatized from the first one. Oh God, the second time is still hurts really bad! To my disappointment, it was still 3 centimeters dilated! I thought it was already 7 centimeters or something. πŸ˜‚ And this time around, the doctor (different doctor) was trying to open up the way. I don't know what she did, but I felt so much pain. I ended up crying really bad in the toilet. When I came back to my bed, my parents were already there. I can't control my tears and I cried some more. B was really worried, he hugged me and consoled me while my mom, being an asian mom said, "Memang la macam tu. Tahan je la." while playing her phone πŸ˜‚ And then... the real contraction started to kick in. Man I was wrong about contraction and hypnobirthing whattt πŸ€·πŸ»‍♀️

Konon nak hypnobirthing la kan, tak sempat pergi kelas pun, sempat tengok youtube a few videos je. Podcast dekat iphone ingat nak dengar, tapi tak sempat. So macam okayh its all about your mind je ni. Lepas tu bila contraction betul-betul jadi, ha kelaut semua hypnobirthing kau. Mental lemah gila, terus tak ingat apa-apa. Hypnobirthing is also about breathing, ha breathing pun kelaut. Tak boleh jerit sebenarnya sebab buang tenaga, takde makna I jerit je dekat wad tu. Kacau patient lain pun tak ingat dah common courtesy ke apa. Nasib baik ada husband yang keep reminding me you can do it and count the breathing techniques together. Ok lepas ni kena pergi kelas hypnobirthing betul-betul, tengok mat saleh relax je. I can do it next time. Ok la for someone yang belajar sendiri dekat youtube je πŸ˜‚

But I'm still glad I came prepared with some knowledge at least. Some is better than nothing. πŸ˜‚ I struggled to have a relax calm and empowering delivery. I'm trying to learn whatever I knew, but when you're in pain, you don't remember anything. Thank God B was there supporting me all the way till the end. It was an ups and downs journey. Sometimes I'm strong, sometimes I just wanted to give up. I remembered how most of the time, I just wanted to give up. But I power through. πŸ’ͺ🏻 Alhamdulillah. Thanks to my husband for the support and for keep reminding me to breath in 4 and breath out 8.

6pm - The third check up was supposed to be on 7pm. But I was in so much pain. I screamed really bad I think the whole ward can hear me. πŸ˜‚ I asked B to call for the doctor. But when the doctor came, I was really scared so I asked the doctor to wait. Me and B keep on walking in the ward for some exercise, and the doctor saw me in real pain. So the doctor asked whether I want to check now, I was like whatever, I'm in pain, let just do this quickly. πŸ˜‚ Alhamdulillah it was 6 centimeters this time. And the doctor quickly want to break my amniotic fluid. I'm like, "What are you doing?" They asked me to relax and I can feel my amniotic fluids flows. I was immediately being taken to bed first, say bye bye to my parents and off to the labour room. Serius macam drama apa πŸ˜‚

6.45pm - When I was pushed into the labour room, I was like, "Wow is this how it looks like? Nothing like television drama." πŸ˜‚ The room was so small but comfy. That time I feel like I need to poop! πŸ˜‚ Actually it was the baby. I keep on screaming. Thank God B was there supporting me, keep reminding me to breath in and breath out. The midwife gave me Entonox. "Entonox (gas and air) is a colourless, odourless gas made up of half oxygen and half nitrous oxide. It's also known as laughing gas. It can take the edge off labour pain." But honestly, I don't feel like it lessen my pain at all? πŸ˜‚

The midwife keep on checking for the cervical dilation. Surprisingly, I no longer feel any pain like the first 3 time, when she checked for the dilation. It was first 7 centimeters. I feel like eternity waiting for the dilation and the doctor! And finally it was 9 centimeters, and the doctor arrived. When the doctor arrived she checked and it was 10 centimeters, she immediately asked me to push. I was like, "Huh? I can push now? Really?" πŸ˜‚ I was so nervous but too tired to think. I'm not sure how many time I push. The midwide was very helpful and supportive. She reminded me not to waste my energy screaming my lung out. She keep on saying that how good I am, because I know how to push. Thank you. πŸŒΈ

7.28pm - Finally, alhamdulillah my baby's safely born. And she is healthy. And behave. And perfect. Alhamdulillah. Immediate skin to skin. I love this hospital, they did all the birth plan that I wanted eventhough I don't specifically ask for it. Then, I thought the hardest part was over. It wasn't over yet. Kena jahit pula dah. 😭 The midwife took my baby because I was restless. It was only 15 minutes skin to skin. She took the baby to weight her and gave to my husband to azan her. Sakit gila jahit adoi. 30 minit sejam juga la. Tapi rasa macam lamanyaaaaaa. Lepas habis jahit, sambung skin to skin and breastfeed.

9.30pm - Finally I can go back to the ward. Ayah kiss me, of course. While Mak just wanted to see the baby. πŸ˜‚ Hello Mak, I'm here! I was the one who's in pain.


I'm glad that I'm having contraction in the evening, I have my husband's support. Kalau tengah malam sorang-sorang dalam wad lagi sedih. I dah la manja lembik semua πŸ˜‚ Kesian tengok patient depan ni kena hadap contraction sorang-sorang malam tu.

And I kira laju la lepas masuk labour room terus beranak. Orang lain 12 jam la apa la. Alhamdulillah. Allah tolong. I really push my body like crazy, please cooperate with me. I'm just too tired. πŸ˜‚

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for easing my pregnancy journey and labour journey. You always knows what's the best for me. πŸŒΈ 

Dear Nafeesa πŸ‘Ά, thank you for being so behave. Alhamdulillah you are healthy, behave and perfect. I love you already!  πŸ’™
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Gratitude | Words of Wisdom 🌟

09 January 2019

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Salam and hye guys!

Previously on my Words of Wisdom series I talk about HAPPY. Today, I want to talk about something that is very related with happiness which is GRATITUDE.

Years ago, during my my doomed years or "zaman kejatuhan" as I would like to call it, I notice that I was lack of gratitude before. I didn't realized how blessful my life is. My roommate said my life is like a fairytales. Maybe in her eyes, I have everything that she wanted. But I did not being grateful at all.

When I decided to be happy again at the end of 2014, I started to be grateful again. I started to notice every single details of my life. Now, I even have a specific journal just to list out everything I am grateful for. I write on my gratitude journal every once a week just to remind me how blessful my life is. Even if I have a bad week or a rough day, I will try to find at least one good thing that day.

I also read The Magic (The Secret #3) by Rhonda Byrne where she talks about how to get everything you want by being grateful and how to be grateful. 

πŸ’™ Count your blessings:- 
1. Your healthy body
2. Your soundmind
3. Your home
4. Your deen
5. Your relationship, family and friends
6. Your job, career, money, & finance
7. Your hobby & passions

πŸ’‘ Journal Prompt & Exercises:


1. List things that you are grateful for every week.
2. Practice saying Alhamdulillah as much as possible

We need to be grateful in order for us to receive more. πŸ’™ As Allah says in one of my favourite ayah in the Quran, "If you are grateful, I will surely give you more and more" (Ibrahim 14:7)



You have everything that you need now because Allah knows the best. Trust Him and starts counting your blessings. πŸ’™

πŸ’™ Love and prayers,
AS
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New Years Resolutions Ideas ✨

07 January 2019

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New year is a perfect time to start something and to make a resolutions. Watch  50 New Years Resolutions Ideas by two of my favourite youtubers, Lavendaire & MuchelleB.

Some of the new years resolution ideas:

  1. Design your ideal habits
  2. Start meal prepping
  3. Read books
  4. Listen to podcast
  5. Start saving your money and invest. 
  6. Declutter your space wit Konmari method.
  7. Social media detox every week
  8. Try journaling 
  9. Volunteer
  10. Learn a new skill
  11. Clean up your eating habits
  12. Find your ideal exercise
  13. Create your self-care routine everyday
  14. Start gratitude journal
  15. Start taking care of your skin


πŸ’› Specific areas to focus on:


  1. Health / Fitness
  2. Relationships
  3. Career / School
  4. Personal Growth / Development
  5. Skills
  6. Mind
  7. Creativity
  8. Spiritual
  9. Home
  10. Money / Financial
  11. Adventure
  12. Travel
  13. Books
  14. Quran Reading / Memorizing
  15. Organize + Declutter
  16. Habits
  17. Self-care
  18. Cooking / Baking
After figuring out your resolutions, make it more specific with  S.M.A.R.T goal setting. SMART stands for Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Relevant and Timely. πŸŒŸ

Good luck!
AS
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Inspiration | Monthly Challenge

04 January 2019

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Hye guys!

This year I decide to try again with my monthly challenge. I'm not sure if this gonna work for me, but lets give it a try. So, for January, I pick "inspiration" as this month challenge.

  1. T- Reminiscing and reflect 2018
  2. W - De-clutter & organize my space
  3. TH - Plan my 2019
  4. F- Laundry day
  5. S - No social media day
  6. SU - No social media day
  7. M - Goal Setting - write down your specific goal
  8. T - Create a vision board 
  9. W - Create my personal policies
  10. TH - Create intention for social medias
  11. F - Make a schedule blocking
  12. S - Watch an inspiring movie
  13. SU - Take a long bath
  14. M - List people that inspire you
  15. T- List things that motivate you
  16. W - List things that make you happy
  17. TH - List of inspiring movies 
  18. F - Create a relaxing bedtime and morning ritual
  19. S - Spend the day reading an inspiring book
  20. SU - Spend the day reading an inspiring book
  21. M - Create my bucket list
  22. T - My favourite  quotes by others
  23. W - Create my own affirmations
  24. THU - List the things I love
  25. F - List things I like about myself
  26. S - Go for a walk
  27. SU - Spa day
  28. M - List fun things to do with my family
  29. T -  List fun things to do with my husband
  30. W-  List fun things to do with my friends
  31. THU - Create what legacy I want to leave behind
4 days done! Not sure what's gonna happen for the rest of the month. πŸ˜‚ Wish me luck! πŸ’ž
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Plan for 2019 ✨

02 January 2019

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Last years goals was quiet successful. I managed to tick off some of the list and create quiet a lot of new habits. I thought I was being specific enough with my goals last year. But this year I discover a more specific method, which is the S.M.A.R.T goal setting as mention on my previous post. SMART stands for Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Relevant and Timely. πŸŒŸ

1. MY 2019 THEME
I would say my theme for 2019 is overall growth 🌱(in terms of career wise, motherhood and personal life), and my supporting word is are challenge ✨ Silencing my fear & getting out of my comfort zone πŸ’ͺ🏻
 

2. HOW DO I WANT TO EVOLVE & GROW IN 2019?
  • I want to be more consistent and have perseverance with my work.
  • I want to be financially secured.
  • I want to be more organize and efficient.
  • I want to be more productive and fit.
  • I want to be more focus.
3. AIMS, GOALS & RESOLUTIONS

πŸ’ Life's aims:
  • To be a good wife, daughter, sister, auntie, friends & human beings.
  • To gain more knowledge.
  • To be more active & healthy.
  • To spread love, positivity & happiness.
  • To save money & financially independent.
🎯 My top 3 goals this year :
  1. To learn & enjoy this motherhood thing with my precious newborn πŸ‘ΆπŸ»πŸ’« (for the rest of my life πŸ˜‚)
  2. To open my own legal firm by early March πŸ—‚πŸ—ƒπŸ“š 
  3. To consistently update my blog 3 times a week (Monday, Wednesday, Friday) & upload a video every Friday πŸ’» πŸŽ₯
πŸ’ž Some of my resolutions :
  1. Try 15 new recipes.
  2. Read 20 books, expand my reading genre and to read only books that I have in my shelf.
  3. Sell or donate my clothes.
  4. Umrah.
  5. Travel.
  6. To lose 17 kg.
  7. To Khatam Quran 3 times.
  8. To hafaz 5 surah.
  9. To hafaz the whole surah in juzk 30.
  10. To learn juzk 30.

(Other areas suggestion if you want to go deeper : Health / Fitness, Relationships, Career / School, Personal Growth / Development, Skills, Mind, Creativity, Spiritual, Home, Money / Financial, Adventure, Travel, Books, Quran Reading, Quran Memorizing, Organize + Declutter)

4. I WANT TO CONTINUE
  1. The 52 week money challenge.
  2. Writing blog post 3 times a week.
  3. Journaling.
  4. Recording my cash flow.
  5. Sleep before midnight.
  6. Drink 1 litter of water.
  7. Listen to a podcast.
  8. Skincare routine.
5. I WANT TO TRY NEW THINGS
  1. Creating videos and posting once a week.
  2. Join online / offline courses / classes
  3. Learn Korean language.
  4. Read 15 minutes daily.
6. I WANT TO STOP
  1. Complaining.
  2. Spending for unnecessary stuff.
  3. Being afraid to communicate to new people.
  4. Procrastinate.
  5. Being overwhelm.
  6. Being my own biggest criticizer.
  7. Membawang.
  8. Feeling blergh and weak.
  9. Letting other people's life affect me.
  10. Finding excuses.
  11. Not being grateful.
  12. Having a lot of expectations from others.
7. MONTHLY CHALLENGE
  1. JANUARY - Inspiration
  2. FEBRUARY - Adulting
  3. MARCH - Productivity 
  4. APRIL - Fitness
  5. MAY - Self-care
  6. JUNE - Relationships
  7. JULY - Kindness
  8. AUGUST - Happiness
  9. SEPTEMBER - Minimalism
  10. OCTOBER - Financial
  11. NOVEMBER - Art
  12. DECEMBER - Organizing
Wish me luck! πŸ™ŒπŸ»☘️ Happy new year everyone! Have a great one. 🌻

Lots of love,

AS
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